here i am once again

well im now at my school house, my home for the next 2+ months. i acutally am taken off hold on friday and start classes. thats all good and dandy now. i need to get some sleep soon, i have the bitch watch tonight. or rather in the morning 2am-445am. its only supposed to be 2 hours but we wake up at 445 so they just leave us on until then. at this point im in the navy for more than 15 months. they have me in for a full term. part of me wants to fight it, so i can be with my fiance, but part of me wants to stay in so i can be a better husband and father down the road. the Navy's 3 mottos: hurry up and wait, change is inevitable, and sacrifices. im told by many people, in my field, that next to nuke (which i was going to go to) i have one of the to 5 hardest jobs in the navy. that includes school too. week 3 is wet trainer, week 4 is firefighting, week 5 is the gas chamber again but only worse, and week 6, 7, & 8 have the highest fail out ratings. so everyone who said i was a lazy bastard back in high school and since then, i dont fail. i have too much riding on my life to allow myself to fail. go thru what ive been through the past 3 months, then come talk to me. anyways to better subjects, unless plans get changed, in exactly 22 months to the day, i will be a married man. i have no fears about it at all. no worries. yeah its 22 months away, but ive never trusted anyone as much as i trust her. i just dont feel right without her around me. ive never had this feeling of wholeness, until i became friends with her, then never understood it until i got to bootcamp. now that i see and understand it, im not going to let the best thing in my life walk out on me, again. but anyways, i need to get back to cleaning lunch is over. i love you baby. i miss you even more. by the way we are about due for another fight soon. lol j/k